Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Blossom Where You're Planted

Tonight I was sitting in church listening to the message about Holy Discontent, about listening to God, and knowing there is a reason for where I am right now. Then Brad said, "We need to BLOSSOM WHERE WE ARE PLANTED." Holy Cow!! That struck me straight to the heart. Just today I was walking the halls at my school wondering how we were going to get through this year. Wondering why everything seems to be going wrong, and why we have so many struggles this year. Basically I was feeling a little sorry for myself and realized that God has placed me where I am for a reason. The kiddos in my class, the staff I work with, the struggles we have been facing...it's all for a purpose.

This year's craziness has exhausted everyone in our program. From chasing "runners" to lifting students, taking an hour to make a child sit in time-out for 2 minutes, being hit, spit on, kicked, scratched, hair pulled etc. This year every day is like this but....THERE IS A REASON. Tonight I realized that maybe the one child who is struggling with being abused and dealing with living in a foster home, or the other child fighting for his life in ICU who we are all praying for, give all this craziness a purpose. If we can touch 1 life amidst all this chaos it will be worth it.

Today I sat with one of my students who is dealing with fear, anger and sadness and drew a picture with him. First he drew a picture about how he was feeling, it was full of sad faces and horrible memories of his life at home. We then talked about the things that are going good for him and drew a picture together of a tree, sun, flowers and birds. Such a simple moment made his day turn from darkness to light. I realized tonight that if I have to get spit on, kicked or run a mile trying to catch one of our runners, it's worth it, because for one moment, for one split second my little student forgot about his fears and was happy.

God give me what I need to be a light to my students even in the darkest of days! Help me to blossom where I have been planted!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Let Me Be Your Light

To often I sit and plan out how "I think" our week, month or year should go. Then I'm reminded that this day that I'm in, this week that is unfolding and the month on the calendar does not belong to me, but to God. This week has been quite an emotional roller coaster. Thinking, planning... and then being reminded that God's plans are often very different from the plans that we have. I was humbled this week, brought to tears this week and then lifted up this week by our Mighty God.

To often I find myself overly excited for events that are in the near future. I am being reminded that living everyday for our FATHER IN HEAVEN is so much more powerful and much more meaningful. I just started a Beth Moore study on Living Beyond Yourself. I struggle with reading God's Word on a regular basis, and this study has me in the WORD!! I feel closer to God and am understanding so much more to his depth. This week Lord, let me be your light!

"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of god, who loved me and gave himself for me" (Gal. 2:20)